Laura talked to her friend and he's okay. =) Thank god. He hurt his thumb but he's not going to kill himself.
Had a substitute teacher in Japanese today. She was nice and knew Japanese unlike past foreign language subs I've had.
I'm desperately trying to finish math homework while listening to my iPod and I listen to my music loud. The person next to me (known to be annoying and stupid. He was in my English class last year) tapped my notebook. I take put an earbud and he says, "What're you listen to?" "Japanese music." "It's really sucky." I can't believe he interrupted me for that. I put my earbud ib and said, "I could care less what you think." and turned up the volume.
Friday, March 11, 2011
Thursday, March 10, 2011
March 10, 2011
Yesterday, as soon as I got home I yelled as loud as I could. My mom had left for a doctor's appointment. It wasn't helping even dull my anger. In frustration I punched the kitchen counter. My knuckles are bruised. After that I just tried to forget about it and I eventually cooled down.
Last night I had a dream. The first dream I've had in a long time. I was in some sort of warehouse. It was dark outside and the florescent lights inside were blinding. There were bamboo plants scattered about and rotting wooden tables. There were three people. A middle-aged women with ragged long black hair. A young women in around her twenties with her blonde hair pulled up in a bun. I can't remember what the third women looked like. The third women held down the black-haired women's wrist and in her other hand a siringe. They all talked for a while. Then the third women tried to give a shot to the black-haired women. She caught the siringe and said, "Do it like I did. Without mercy." "Six seconds like the usual sessions." The black-haired women got the shot then everything felt numb and tingly and everything went black. I heard the third women counting. At five the blackness disappeared. Some more talking. Then the blonde women faced the wall and took off her shirt. That's the end of it. Strange...
Last night I had a dream. The first dream I've had in a long time. I was in some sort of warehouse. It was dark outside and the florescent lights inside were blinding. There were bamboo plants scattered about and rotting wooden tables. There were three people. A middle-aged women with ragged long black hair. A young women in around her twenties with her blonde hair pulled up in a bun. I can't remember what the third women looked like. The third women held down the black-haired women's wrist and in her other hand a siringe. They all talked for a while. Then the third women tried to give a shot to the black-haired women. She caught the siringe and said, "Do it like I did. Without mercy." "Six seconds like the usual sessions." The black-haired women got the shot then everything felt numb and tingly and everything went black. I heard the third women counting. At five the blackness disappeared. Some more talking. Then the blonde women faced the wall and took off her shirt. That's the end of it. Strange...
Wednesday, March 9, 2011
March 9, 2011
Since this is my first blog I should introduce myself. My name is Misaki and I live on the east coast in Virginia. I'm seventeen years old and a third year in highschool. Hanging out with my friends, playing video games, and voice acting are my favorite things to do. I am in a relationship with a fellow AVA (Amateur Voice Actor), Dan Szczypinkski. And yes..I'm in love with him. The seventh of this month was our two month anniversary. We are dating online, but he lives pretty close by in New Hampshire. He's my inspiration as well as John Go, Laura, Vanessa, and many others in the YouTube AVA community. I don't know what I'm planning on for my blog. That goes for who I'll show it to or if l'll just keep it private from my friends. Its my hope to vent here and get some advice. I'll look forward to comments from my readers. So don't be shy, okay?^^
Now that introductions are over I'd like to tall about what's been going on in my life. First off my parents are divorced. Both parents have new partners. I didn't like my dad's girlfriend too much at first but now we're pretty close. My mom's boyfriend however...we've never gotten along. He ways has something to take from me. He's an obsessive control freak. He won't let me collaborate with anyone on YouTube anymore because he's suddenly worked up over the copyright law. He also said I shouldn't trust strangers and all that bullshit. Oh I forgot to mention that when I was around fourteen I tried texting one of my friends and well...he turned out to be a fourty year old married man. And we weren't exactly "friends." But I didn't tell the police that when they came knocking. My moms boyfriend used that as an excuse to cut me off from the Internet. I only just got YouTube in August. I bet you're wondering how I get online here. Well my grandma bought an iPod touch for me. She and my mom don't get along too well.
I've been wanting to live with my dad for a long time. Last time I brought it up I got yelled at and so I haven't said anything since. Plus my mom has a habit of interogating me. My dad and I get along really well. He basically raised me since my mom is an opera singer she used to travel all around the world. I used to travel with her and my dad but my dad refused after a while. I guess it just got to being too much.
Another thing that has happened is my "sissy" Laura has been struggling with a few things lately. Her ex has fallen in love with another women he thinks he has no chance with but he's also kissing Laura and tells her he still loves her. And Laura's with someone right now and he knows that.The only reason Laura doesn't stop talking to him is because it would cause drama and he's still very important to her because they've known each other for so long. I can understand that. Today Laura told me he's off to fight for the one he loves and he might not make it out alive...I...I mean I don't know him very well but I really don't want him o die. He's Dan's best friend and a really talented voice actor..I don't know. I guess it's that whole I love him because he's important to people who're important to me. I hope that he does survive...I really do.
And yet another thing...Lately, I've found myself getting angry. The feeling would just surface out of nowhere. I've punched walls, yelled, tried voice acting but all that stuff doesn't work anymore...I've been getting angrier and I don't know why.
Last thing for today...Dan is the type of person who gets really angry easily and it's hard for him to control. And he tells me^^ to tell him everything but he gets silent and tells me to drop it when he's upset...One of my really close friends here, Melissa, told me that guys often get like that and I won't know what he's thinking. I want us to be able to tell each othe everything and anything. But right now ideal like that's just one aided...But maybe it's just selfish of me to expect that from him. After all we've only been dating for two months. He'll come around...right?
Edit 1- This just happened but I stay with one of my past teachers during my free period (I take Japanese at another school) and she mentioned the SOL. I just realized I'd missed it. She was teasing me about how there's no regales and such and I began to cry...She gave me a big bag of kettle corn to cheer me up. I cry so easily...now I have to retake it..
Now that introductions are over I'd like to tall about what's been going on in my life. First off my parents are divorced. Both parents have new partners. I didn't like my dad's girlfriend too much at first but now we're pretty close. My mom's boyfriend however...we've never gotten along. He ways has something to take from me. He's an obsessive control freak. He won't let me collaborate with anyone on YouTube anymore because he's suddenly worked up over the copyright law. He also said I shouldn't trust strangers and all that bullshit. Oh I forgot to mention that when I was around fourteen I tried texting one of my friends and well...he turned out to be a fourty year old married man. And we weren't exactly "friends." But I didn't tell the police that when they came knocking. My moms boyfriend used that as an excuse to cut me off from the Internet. I only just got YouTube in August. I bet you're wondering how I get online here. Well my grandma bought an iPod touch for me. She and my mom don't get along too well.
I've been wanting to live with my dad for a long time. Last time I brought it up I got yelled at and so I haven't said anything since. Plus my mom has a habit of interogating me. My dad and I get along really well. He basically raised me since my mom is an opera singer she used to travel all around the world. I used to travel with her and my dad but my dad refused after a while. I guess it just got to being too much.
Another thing that has happened is my "sissy" Laura has been struggling with a few things lately. Her ex has fallen in love with another women he thinks he has no chance with but he's also kissing Laura and tells her he still loves her. And Laura's with someone right now and he knows that.The only reason Laura doesn't stop talking to him is because it would cause drama and he's still very important to her because they've known each other for so long. I can understand that. Today Laura told me he's off to fight for the one he loves and he might not make it out alive...I...I mean I don't know him very well but I really don't want him o die. He's Dan's best friend and a really talented voice actor..I don't know. I guess it's that whole I love him because he's important to people who're important to me. I hope that he does survive...I really do.
And yet another thing...Lately, I've found myself getting angry. The feeling would just surface out of nowhere. I've punched walls, yelled, tried voice acting but all that stuff doesn't work anymore...I've been getting angrier and I don't know why.
Last thing for today...Dan is the type of person who gets really angry easily and it's hard for him to control. And he tells me^^ to tell him everything but he gets silent and tells me to drop it when he's upset...One of my really close friends here, Melissa, told me that guys often get like that and I won't know what he's thinking. I want us to be able to tell each othe everything and anything. But right now ideal like that's just one aided...But maybe it's just selfish of me to expect that from him. After all we've only been dating for two months. He'll come around...right?
Edit 1- This just happened but I stay with one of my past teachers during my free period (I take Japanese at another school) and she mentioned the SOL. I just realized I'd missed it. She was teasing me about how there's no regales and such and I began to cry...She gave me a big bag of kettle corn to cheer me up. I cry so easily...now I have to retake it..
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